the trip i have not blogged about yet

Sculpture garden - I have to say, i loved the space, hated the downstairs art. It felt like a bunch of heady garbage. It really held no appeal for me, other than plant the idea in my head that the cellar which it was displayed in would be a far better haunted house than exhibit. Although the voodoo trapeze was ghostly and eerie and i absolutely adored that.

MoMa- I thought Ps1 was a bit better than the sculpture garden. Highlights for me:

Soundroom- walking in the middle of all the sound was one experience but walking to each individual speaker to hear the individual parts that made the whole piece work was mind blastingly cool

Cellar Thingy- This was the creepiest thing i have ever seen. When i went to this room it was just matt megan and i and we were all alone in the room. What made this scary was that every time a car passed or person walked over us, there was a noise that, amongst the ambient noise made me literally jump out of my skin.

The Whitney- I would have appreciated this museum more if i hadn't been so tired and damp from the rest of the day. i felt as if i was just dragging myself through this museum and diddnt really want to understand the work

Rest of the day: i mean, St.Marks is amazingly cool and unique, but those damn neo-futurists were hilarious. I want to say how unique they were but....they weren't.....it was tablo.....but at the same time it was unique....i really want to make this an improv or put it in my play somehow....

that acting thing

during the acting thing i was so damn proud of myself. i finally if not for a split second stopped acting. i stopped acting. I stopped thinking and stopped acting. it was great. i felt great life was great i loved it. It started with the box thing where despite my best efforts against myself, i had alot of fun. It was creepy. Instead of a box, i was in an inescapable house, reminicent of Patrick Mcgoohan's house in the prisoner. i was having such a fun time escaping one room into another i diddnt want to stop. I actually believed that i was a prisoner in the house. Then during the partner exercise i felt as if i was talking to a friend and not even acting a part. It felt natural and lucid. Just ask John his thoughts about our conversation.........he'll tell you that it was something....Special let's just say. i dont know what i did or diddnt do, but i think it centers on me not thinking and just doing, leading by impulse instead of mental thoughts.

today

I'm not sure exactly what to call what happened today. In the beginning i'll admit i was a bit skeptical of the whole process. I was a bit tentative about putting such personal materials on display for the school to see, heck if the words weren't so vague i would still be tentative about putting them up. I dont think of myself as a guarded person exactly, but when it comes to my art i'm usually very sensitive about my feelings. It's hard for me to be sincere, that much i know. I'm not sure why, maybe it's a lack of trust, maybe i'm afraid of being hurt again, if i knew the reason then i wouldnt be in this predicament, But i digress. I liked the fact that whenever i made a reason for liking an aspect of my art, another larger reason for liking my art came into focus, like a controlling aspect, what i strive to achieve through art. It all led to happiness and i was happy with it. Isnt it what everyone is striving for anyway? isn't it why people do art so they can achieve some sort of happiness or self satisfaction ( a form of happiness). it makes sense why im happiest while doing my art, because my sole goal is to make myself happy.

hello

im working on a play.

it is taking very long.

thats all.

not much to say for this week yet, two days in. This year for me is about projects cranking them out doing nothing but putting my head down and working. Leaving a legacy. This may not allow me to have the normal "stac experience" but it's what i have chosen to do. I want to work, i want to create, i want to explore and this is the year to do it. I will need help, lots of it and constantly. Feel free to ask if i need help, because im sure as hell bound to say yes with something. Im happiest when im buried in my art. I love every second of it. Writing, filming, acting, playing with scenes, all help me discover more about myself and the world around me.

-Katzy

dancing

Stretching and lots of it! Instead of copious amounts of dancing, Matt decided to really stretch us out, get up limber, and loosen our tension. I was still sore from the play so that helped a bunch for me. I learned that because of soccer the side of my thighs were super limber and the backs were very strained. Afterwards we danced a bit to dancing through life, my favorite wicked song, it was interesting to learn the various things that people at auditions might make you do.

workshops day something or other

we started working on the actual play today and it was great seeing it all come together. From what i've seen i can tell it will be awesome. I especially enjoyed the integration of the statue exercise into the actual piece. Although i did not get to find out my part, i did make an amazing dead....cordilla.

play

it's late

im tired

here goes

what i did well: characterization - i had my character in mind and i believe i stayed within his limits...not that there were many the guy was a nut.

poorly- i overacted a little, justified by the fact that Urinetown is sort of over the top and there was no energy from most of the cast to begin with but still as an actor i should try to not overact just for the sake of a laugh....unless i do.

the "cantaloupes" line i thought was fun, but a tad over the top...i tried to get the most out of hot blades.

my other characters were just kind of going through the motions trying to do what i was asked all the while keeping the attention where it needed to be

i felt out of place during all of act one, i had no idea where to stand and i just kind of made it up as i went along.

i liked the falling bit during "privilege" it made the audience frightened because it looked so real which i thought was hilarious. fun fact i've fallen purposefully in every musical i have ever been in....also had some sort of wardrobe malfunction.....

i liked the struggle between hope and i during act 1 finale it looked real because it mostly was real =D

i liked how i was able to adapt to changing circumstances as they came along. I did not panic i merely went with it within boundaries of my character. i felt that i did that seamlessly.

there isn't too much acting for me to criticize myself upon. Was it a tony performance? not by any means? did i learn any acting from this? sort of. i learned about changing due to specific circumstance but that is right up my alley with improv

i wish there was more dancing and movement and physicality, and that the poor was given something to do rather then stand around.

that being said it was not a bad performance by any means i thoroughly enjoyed being a part of this production and i thought it went well as a whole.

oh i liked that i was able to create my character more or less from my own head and not just singularly copying someone else's rendition. i thought i put my own spin to harry which i thought was cool

i needed more time to work on my character i worked with what i had but we focused more on vocals then character work, i needed more blocking i guess although i liked the freedom to move wherever i wanted whenever i wanted- which was ok for my but i guess it may have confused my costars a bit because they never knew where i would be more or less.

any thoughts on my performance anyone? questions? comments? admirations?

Goia

WOW ok so we got some cool stuff in yesterday- Leer, damn what a book. Made me feel like complete shit about life. The thing i found most interesting however was something i thought (even though Matt will take credit for this....I thought it before you said it Matt!) ----that everyone who commented on what they thought leer was about took their interpretation from things going on in their lives. I cant really speak for anyone else but i know my interpretation (that the theme in Leer was that life shits on you sometimes) came from the crap storm of work that is called JR year. It makes perfect sense that my interpretation came from what i was going through at that particular time in my life. Everything is an autobiography.

my vlog/dance

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jOVhU6nY-Bg -vlog

Dancing wow lots of fun, we got to do some hip hop. shit it was fast. really fast, really, really, really fast. Man that guy has skill. Although i have to say that the faster it got the more determined i was to try and perfect it. It became a challenge and i love challenges. I have to work on flexibility, although it is unfair to compare myself to the instructor who has been doing flexibility for his whole life and to the girls in my class who are....anatomically different then me. But that isn't an excuse. I have lots of schtuff to accomplish. LETS GO!

rob workshop

yesterday we had a workshop with the famous Rob Goia. In this workshop we unpacked various monologues from the play King Leer. It was very interesting to learn the various ways to really delve into the character to see what he or she was thinking. Using Rob's methods i found it easier to not only decipher the monologue's meaning but also realized that using his methods, i realized the various methods Shakespeare used to convey emotion as well as thoughts

workshops again

DANCING! WOOT WOOT it is about time we got a dancing workshop in! It was so much fun! I leaned how to (properly) pirouette! which was nice. Then, the best part we got to learn a dance and danced to "live in living color" from Catch Me If You Can which was such an amazing song and the dance was so addicting i found myself doing it all through rehearsal!

workshops mark 4

GOD I WISH I HAD MY FUCKING TOMS AND CYMBALS. We jammed through baba O'riley and i wish i had my toms and cymbals to do fills on. The snare sucks and there is only one cymbal for me to bash, and bash i did....broke my sticks actually =/ All in all, love the workshop freddie is the man and any excuse to jam is alright by me.

feeddie part 3

Well we've been grooving on some blues and some more don't stop believing. We nearly got the song down just need to work on the ending a bit. Its much more fun to drum with people playing with me. OH! we are thinking about playing Baba o riley! IM SO EXCITED TO BE KEITH MOON DAMMIT! I LOVE THAT SONG!

workshoppes

So day 3 of workshops. Today was spent learning a basic blues progression and trying to find out sound as a group. What i realized is that when i simplified the beat, and kept it steady, the band had an easier time coming together. Also when i played a beat that i was more comfortable with (the punk rock beat) the band seemed to be more confident and more in-sync. The song is coming along well. Get There!

workshops

SO WE MADE A PUNK COVER OF "DON'T STOP BELIEVIN'" sue us. Our infamous "Get There" sessions continue. Aided by the legendary Rocksteady Freddie, our clan managed to through a good portion of the (admittedly) already over played song. Although it is overplayed we managed to find a way to make it fresh and fun to play along to. I'm trying to get used to the whole off beat hit the bass on "3" thing. Its really different then playing rock, and it's something i need to get used to. Excelsior!

a day of ska

let me first say how utterly cool Rocksteady Freddie is. If i may, he is a Cat, a straight up Cat. So today we learned the basics of Ska as well as some music theory. I was honestly surprised how quickly we all came together as a makeshift band to create something that sounded not too bad. The best part of anything however was seeing Freddie jam on his sax. He got really into the music and he was emitting this sense of joy like jamming was his favorite thing in the world. It was super cool to jam with someone from a legitimate band, with a legitimate music career, who is an outstanding musician! HW: work on finger dexterity and listen to his band's drummer. More later....

Mr. Rocksteady Freddie Reilter

"Rocksteady" Freddie Reiter is a ska saxophonist who played in the band The Toasters and is currently in the New York Ska-Jazz ensemble. The toasters were one of the first bands in the "third wave" of American Ska and are the longest active ska band in America. Their songs have been featured in commercials and in the opening credits of the Nickelodeon show "Ka-Blam". His discography contains about 15 or so CD's, 3 of which he wrote or arranged songs for, 4 of which were with The Toasters. Freddie currently tours around the USA playing songs with past members of the Ny Ska-Jazz ensemble. I'm really looking forward to this workshop!

my convo with nikki about next to normal's Gabe

The slightly smaller font is nikki the larger is mine

glad you liked it haha

any understudies on?

oh more then that

and no

ahhaa

lol yes it's amazing

oh the actor playing gabe

like i loved the show

but i was just

obsessed

couldnt take me eyes off of him

kyle dean massey? (i'm a loser, i'm well aware)

yeah he has great stage presence

and the fuckeer played fierro

my (until tonight)

dream role

o yeah i think he's going back to that when neaxt to normal closes

wht a little shit

bastard

living my dream

dick

lol wicked wil prob still be open for like 20 more years, you have time

ik

but

i want gabe

im determined to rock "im alive"

to own that shit

its going to be my go to song

determined for that shit

yeah it's a great song

thats the thing i took from this show

like emotion was great

and everyting

but im like

i want to work

and work

and work

i want to be on that level

and better

im fucking .....UGH i can see myself doing that sooo hard

that's really cool and i know what you mean if i could be in that show like...ah

its like

i know that part is right for me

those emotions he hits.....the malice and the energy

i know

that is me

all of those roles must be so exhausting

like in an amazing way though

the last time i saw it there was an understudy on for diana and she was amazing it was only her 2nd time on

and at the stage door im like wow how exhausting must that be waht'd you do now?

and she's like i need a drink!

hahaah

i know

u sound just like the girls sitting behind me

haha

the thing i thought when i heard that

was that

shit

id do it

and id love doing it

i could see myself doing it thats the thing

just picturing it

i wouldnt care how exausting it would be

i would love doing it

o i agree if i could be doing any of those roles it'd be worth it

he looked like he was having a goddamn blast

ah i have such mixed emotions with that character. like i love the way it's played but because of the way i identified it with my own life the character was always 100% evil then last time i saw it i saw the different dimensions and now it's like ahh i don't know if i should hate him

hahaha

i know

i hate him so much

but i want to be him

he is malice

and evil

and just raw energy

and i love it

i want to embody that

he's a life ruiner and he takes pleasure in that, he's so powerful

i love the power he has

its just appealing to me

i want that

to be the one evveryone is drawn to

i swear to god

it was like

there was noone else on stage

yea he was stunning

GOD I WANT TO FUCKING BE HIM

ugh u have no idea the drive i feel right now

blog?!

i dont even want to haha like i could say it

but y say it

when i can do it

writing it at this point would just be looking for pats on that back

I WANT TO DO NOT SAY

mhm